I miss this guy today.
The next day, Halloween, you left us. I still can't bring myself back to the moment you took your last breath. It's still too hard, too raw. I didn't want to say good bye. I remember the doctors saying that we should tell you that it was okay for you to let go. And I remember whispering to you "it's ok Dad, it's ok for you to let go", but then I'd quickly say "No. No, I'm not ready. Don't go.". It was selfish of me, because you were suffering. It wasn't ok for you to go. But it was time.
We all put a smile on our faces for the kids today. It's Halloween! But inside our hearts are still breaking. We'll never be the same without you, our family has a Bill sized hole in it no one could ever fill.
I love you Dad. Always have. Always will.