Urgh

I am so stressed lately. About what? You name it. Work, family, friends. I'm sure I could wipe half of these worries away - I'm a worrier by nature and I tend to worry about things I don't need to. But alas, there they are.

As you know I'm a reader of The Secret. And I do subscribe to the theories - I think positive thinking has power. At least it can't hurt! :) I find myself not practicing what I preach, however, and THAT is stressing me out! So I'm going to use this blog post as a means of venting and putting some positive energy into my and my loved one's lives.

Work
I have a project that is NOT going well (to say the least). I tend to get a little worked up when things don't go perfectly (or even not so perfectly)...I need to trust in my ability and the abilities of those around me and just move on. Losing sleep certainly doesn't make me any better prepared to deal with crap that happens. Besides that, I'm constantly striving to be the best at my job - better than anyone else ever in the history of my job (EVER!). It's taking me a while to get there and that pisses me off (Brady - I SERIOUSLY am the most impatient person ever).

Friends
I have a friend who's going through a really bad time, but I can't physically be there for her right now, as she lives across the country and I have about 678 work commitments keeping me on the East Coast this fall. This makes me feel like a total failure as a friend. I just hope she knows I love her with all of my heart, and that I'm only a phone call away.

Family
Tomorrow would have been my dad's 62nd birthday. None of us are in a great place today I don't think. Thankfully, it's also Miss Madeline's 6th birthday - so we at least have a reason to celebrate on what could potentially be a little bit of a sad day. But really, shouldn't we be celebrating his life, rather than mourning how brief it was? I say yes.

So, in a nutshell that's what's got me down today (and this whole freakin' past weekend). I feel better getting it out.

Thanks for reading.

Love to you all!
J